I've had nightmares of going to start my last cycle and having the nurse tell me they did it wrong and will have to do it all again! Wouldn't it be great if all of this was curative? My doctors tell me that there may be a cure by the time I need treatment again. I hope so. After a month or so I'll be tested to see how the chemo did. I'm sure to be anxious, longing to hear what I fear I will not. In the end I will go back to goals. When diagnosed in 2006 @ 46 years old, my goal was to make 50 before treatment and I made it to 52. Now my goal will be 58 or beyond before the need to do something again. "That which we manifest is before us." My mantra from The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein. Anyway, I blather on with obvious thoughts on the future of my next watch and wait.
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